I'm feeling a bit of jumpiness tonight, unease or unrest at still being a bit sick and having a whole evening open. Not hard to deal with, but it's good to remember I still experience scatteredness and nervousness and fear. It's just that I feel whole, which I never have before. How is that possible? I know everyone else can't feel this way naturally, because most people are hardly content, but I've always gotten the sense that most folks don't feel themselves to be fractured or broken the way I always did.

Except I was never fractured. I was just remarkably confused.

Must continue training and practice.

I had tea with the ex yesterday, which started out a little awkward, but then turned pleasant and ended with a nice hug. It's funny and wonderful to me how bodies remember each other.