overheating.

Today's quote comes from Homer Simpson, watching a meteor shower: "I wish God were alive to see this."

So bloody warm this weekend. I overheated taking afternoon naps both yesterday and today, so I think I just need to drink water constantly. I'm really not looking forward to the summer. Not that I ever have, but ugh.

Everything has a reckoning, I guess, or several of them, when you discover you can't or don't want to keep your life to yourself and it's time to share it with some of the people who love you, and a few of the people who don't. Maybe somebody will stop liking you, but probably not; and the people who don't like you, if they know you and dislike you anyway, are lost causes. It's nerve-wracking. It always feels like the end of the world, but it never is.

I can't believe how constantly, overwhelmingly tired I am. I just don't sleep. I wake up at six in the morning, and by six-thirty I'm bolt awake and having to find something to do. Then I get tired again around nine, because (SURPRISE!) I didn't get enough sleep. Going to bed early results in waking up earlier; going to bed sufficiently early results in first waking up again an hour later (my body must think I'm kidding and I actually meant to take a nap and not actually go to bed for the night), followed by waking up earlier.

I just want more sleep.


Chris